I just have this feeling,
It's a feeling of distance...
I feel like he just basically used me
which has happened before,
but I wish I could talk to him about it.
Its really hard for me to share my feelings though.
I hope I'm not pushing him away.

I mean, I have done this before...
The whole distance thing.
I distance myself because I like them.
(Guys)
And I try my hardest not to be with them because I don't want it to end like every other relationship,
HeartBroken.

It's just a feeling though,
Not a distancing feeling but I feel like he is distancing from me.
I never thought I would date someone with ...
Similar problems?
I don't really know much about this guy though too...
Pretty sure he has told me a lot but my memory is poor.
I still feel like something is wrong though.
Like something is going to happen for the worst,

I feel like he is going to do what others have done...

If it happens then it happens I guess...?
But the thing is,
I don't want it to happen.
I've never met a douche that was so nice before.
Guess I am just never supposed to get a good guy that treats me great.
Or this is just the warm up guy,
Even though
(This is pathetic but true)
He is probably the only really nice guy I dated.

Unless he is like all the rest,
And he acts nice at first then

BAM!!

He becomes like every other guy and just dumps me because he found someone better.
Then comes up with some pussy excuse like,
"I just need some time to think"
Every damn time.

 (Ex Boyfriends and Current)

1. Jared
   He was an over the phone boyfriend, but he moved really far away and then we decided to be done because it was a waste of his time.
   His words.
2. Dylan
   We met and then he asked me out,
   I broke up with him because he was an ass hole and made fun of my height like an immature 10 year old even though he was 16 and I was 15.
3. Logan
   He was the guy who took my virginity.
   We dated for over a year and I cheated on him a lot.
   My first serious relationship...
   He dumped me for another girl (and cheated on my with a TON of other girls... pay back is a bitch.)
   But his pathetic excuse was, he needed time to think and that he still loved me. I didn't care by the time he dumped me.
4. Cody
   I dated him for 6 months while dating Logan.
   I also took his virginity.
   He dumped me for some younger girl even though he was 14 when I was 16 and he went after an 11 year old. **GROSS**
5. Dustin
   Over the phone relationship,
   I started "dating" him when I was on the verge of breaking up with Logan. He dumped me because he couldn't handle shit anymore.
   Pussy!
6. Brandon
   Well he was my third serious relationship.
   We went to prom together (it was kinda cute except he wouldn't dance with me)
   He dumped me for his ex that he went back to 4 times.
   She was also a younger girl.
   He wanted to do a lot more than what I allowed him.
   He was a jerk most of the time but my only way to feel less 3rd wheely...
7. Dustin (again)
   Umm? Yeah that was a stupid move on my part...
   I was bored and yet again he dumped me for no reason because he suffered with depression and anxiety of being alone.
   (Stop being a stalker and dumping girls then)
   DUMB ASS
8. Brandon (again)
   He wanted to try one more time because "He was in love with me"
   Whatever man,
   He said I was different when we dated again...
   So he broke up with me and then was expecting me to be upset?
   Well that's what you get for dumping me for a younger girl.
   Fucking retarded douche bag.
   I dislike this guy so much.
9. Lance
   We are currently together and this who I am talking about before I went on my list of ex boyfriends...
   I just felt this connection with him when I first kissed him (before we started dating)
   I thought he was different but,
   Time will tell.
   He really doesn't know much about me...
   I don't know much about him.
   But its that connection,
   even when I was just sitting there with him the first time we hung out I felt a weird pressence with him.
   Different...