I have thoroughly enjoyed my two days off.  I mean really, I could get used to not working.

So I had my little Christmas rant, that's over and done with.  Craig and I opened our Christmas presents to each other on Tuesday (after his jersey was finally freakin delivered lol).  So his loot from me included: "Ax Men" t-shirt, "Ice Road Truckers" sweatshirt, an ornament w/ our engagement picture on it, the Lady Gaga book that everyone is drooling about (I don't see what the big deal is...), and the personalized Atlanta Falcons jersey w/ his name on it.  I think I did pretty good for him this year.  But he went above and beyond for me.

This year, instead of buying me (what I consider to be) impersonal stuff (Coach bag, jewelry), he went with "funny" gifts lol.  Things he saw and thought I'd like.  And while I don't MIND getting a new Coach bag or diamonds every year, it was a nice change of pace to have fun gifts, gifts he had to actually think about.  He said he'll get me diamonds next year haha.  But anyway.  He got me:

-Two "board' games: "Fact or Crap" and "Pass the Popcorn", which he suggested we bring next time we get together with my family.  He apparently thoroughly enjoys our game nights and horrifying levels of competition hahaha
- Mickey & Minnie light up Christmas decoration.... it plays 12 different songs!
-Homer Simpson Chia pet lmao.  This was his true gag gift.... he got it for himself but thought I'd get a kick out of it, so he wrapped it and gave it to me.
-Christmas Cupcake scented Yankee Candle (the BIG sized one!)
-Spongebob cocoa set... Came with two Spongebob mugs and two cocoa mixes (my mom gave me something similar 4+ years ago haha)
-Spongebob Christmas DVD
-Spongebob pillow
-NY Giants Eli Manning jersey
-Starbucks gift card
-Barnes & Noble gift card

What's weird is that he said he knew there was no way I'd be expecting a Giants jersey (though honest to God, I've been wanting to get one, but I never told him!), and that he wasn't sure which player I liked best, but since I "verbally berate Manning the most", he figured I'd at least get a kick out of it.  Haha!  So he gave me that gift last cuz he knew I wouldn't be expecting it.  So of course I had to give him his Falcons jersey last because I knew he wouldn't be expecting that!

How weird is it that we got each other football jerseys?  Lol, I think that's so cute.

His parents were WAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYY too good to me this year.  His grandparents gave me money and like a little "beauty bag" which consisted of nail polish, a pumace board, nail files, a compact, and a gift card to Bath & Body works.  His parents gave me money, a really cute sweatshirt, some ornaments for the tree (one for our engagement.... I'll post a pic at some point), a giant fake engagement ring (replica of Kim Kardashian's, his mom gave it as a gag gift lol I cracked up), and then..... the thing I was definitely least expecting:  A Kindle Fire!!

Holy SHIT!

I have the coolest future in-laws everrrrrr lol.

I played with it a little yesterday, downloaded some books for it.  It's pretty much the same thing as my iPad2, but I'm not complaining!!  More toys for me to play with!  Lol.... plus Kindle has a shit-ton more free books than iBooks.

So I made out like a BANDIT for Christmas.  My parents got me some gift cards, a ring holder (yay!), a Hidden Mickey book for when we go back to Disney, and postage stamps (hey, I asked for them!).  Grammy gave me a check and she cross-stitched ornaments for me and Craig.  She did one for each grandchild, so that was pretty cute.

And then yesterday was my birthday.  After the disaster that was my birthday 2010, I went into this birthday with looooow expectations.  I honestly didn't want to do ANYTHING this year, just veg out and go out to eat.  So that's what we did.  Craig had to work, so I hung out with my parents for the day.  We got Chinese for lunch (delishhhhhhhh) and I opened presents.  They got me more gift cards (Michael's, Starbucks, B&N), a coupon box (I asked for that, too!), and I can't remember what else lol.  Matt got me a book and a waffle maker.  Sweet!  Sean and Tarin got me clothes, which I do desperately need!  Craig's parents and grandparents gave me money, and Craig got me a heated blanket (which ROCKS...used it last night lol) and a Nala stuffed animal lol.  I love his gifts.... They really are ME.

When Craig got home from work we just vegged out and then he and I went and got Italian for dinner.  It was a very low-key birthday.  No singing, no cake (my mom made me a pudding pie haha), no decorations, no balloons.  I just relaxed and enjoyed the day, it was just what I wanted.  It was weird to spend the night NOT with my parents, though.  I wasn't born until 930 pm, so my mom always made it a point to have people stay at the house (when we had bday parties) until then so they could actually celebrate the time of my birth.  This year, I was with Craig.  I just missed my parents at that time, I guess.  Hmmm.

Anyway, that's about that.

Had a minor meltdown the night before my birthday.  I decided I wanted to sit down with Craig and seriously discuss going part-time.  When I mentioned it, he shot me down playfully.  But when he asked why I wanted to go part time, I told him that I am honestly miserable at work, that I'm depressed just thinking about work, that I dread going in every day.  I told him my manager really isn't doing anything to help, and it's not that I hate my floor, I just can't be there every single day anymore.  It's too much.  So Craig kind of joked around, said shit like, "You're not really depressed, you're fine."  And like he kind of blew it off.

I may not be clinically depressed, but I'm in no way happy at my job.  I like the people I work with, that's really the only reason I'm not leaving the floor entirely.  But I felt kind of shitty that he wasn't taking it seriously.  I don't just SAY I'm depressed and then go hopping and skipping merrily into work.  I trudge in.  Craig only really sees me when I'm happy and snappy, and that's because I'm happy I'm not at work and I'm happy to see him.

I dunno, I was angry he didn't take it seriously, and then he tried to recover by saying I could go part time, I could quit and he wouldn't care, I should do whatever makes me happy.

I don't know if part time WOULD make me happy, though.  Like what would I do?  Go shopping? Read?  Sew?  Cook and clean?  Go out with my friends for lunch/coffee/whatever?  Enjoy my life?  Not have so much stress and anxiety??

It sounds DELICIOUS..... but....... should I?  I don't know, it's still a lot to think about.

Anyway.... I started a new embroidery piece!!  It's a Celtic cross type thing.... It's different.  Craig probably won't like it, but I love my Irish heritage and I like the colors in the pattern.  It'll look nice in the house :o)

Craig said yesterday he wants a bigger house.  Oy.  He's only had this one a year!  Siiiiiiiiigh.  I knew it was a starter house going into the thing, but he didn't really think about it.  Oh well, we're not gonna be starting that process anytime soon, so put that on the backburner.

Ok, gonna go sew a little before lunch and *sigh* work.....