I believe it comes with age.  I may be naive to think that as soon as I turned 24 the world seemed to open up to me... But I do.  I do think that.  I believe that as soon as I turned 24 there was a time bomb that started ticking, and slowly I started coming to several different realizations that not only enrage me but enlighten me.

Firstly, does it make me a bad person if I want absolutely nothing to do with people that don't share my personal beliefs?  Does it make me a wrong person?

I've tried, and have succeeded mostly, in doing research whenever somebody makes a comment (particularly about political happenings).  No longer when someone makes a comment about what the conservative parties have pushed forth in the ways of bills and such do I cry, "Oh those conservatives, they trashed the United States!  They left Obama with so much grief and that's the reason that we're in so much debt!"  NO.  I have done my research.  I stand mute on what Obama has done thus far.  I honestly have no opinions about it, because there are always two sides to every story, and the only side I have heard is hearsay and a million different lists of what he has and hasn't done, and every single one of the lists are different.  So until I have a fact-sheet, I don't have an opinion on it.

There are some people I read on a daily basis, mostly on Facebook, and it might be due to young age or inexperience, naivety, or plain ignorance, that believe that liberals are the "debol", and to be quite honest, I'm really sick of hearing it.  These are the same people that think if a woman does want a baby, she shouldn't spread her legs... Well, what about rape?  What about incestual rape?  It doesn't really seem fair to me that they are grouping every woman that has ever had an abortion, ever, as some sort of saucy harlot that goes spreading her legs more than the whores in the book of Proverbs. 

Is this what we've resorted to?  Dismissing every opinion as trash unless it deliberately agrees with yours?  I may be out of line here and I might be contradicting myself like a flippin' hypocrite but it just doesn't seem fair that I have to deal with their opinions and their cries for justice and fairness and whatever, but I feel like I'm walking on eggshells and have to turn around every time I post a thought or a plea and have them respond with their opinions.  If you express yours on your page without my interference, I should be able to do the same thing.

It's driving me fucking insane.  I can't think of a more eloquent way to word that.

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In other news, today was our first Sunday morning practice (they won't be in the afternoons anymore since we are moving locations one day a week, and adding a third day at the new location, keeping just one day at the old location).  The floor at the rink is SO much better and will be beneficial to me as a skater.

S is buying me butt pads and some proper fitting knee pads so I can evolve faster without fear of breaking my tailbone a third time.  Those will be here next week, I believe.

And, I had my feelings hurt today.

We had a team meeting and were electing committee heads.  A elected me as head of the Recruitment committee and everybody else agreed.  But then B objected, without giving another person, but simply said that I don't try hard enough in practice.  I may be making excuses for myself but I am healing from a fractured tailbone, one with a break on top of it.  I injured it twice within one month, and that's probably the worst injury to have as a skater.  You never know how much is connected to your coccyx until you injure it.  But after the meeting, B told me that she didn't say it to hurt my feelings, she just said that she could tell I've been holding back in practice, that I look scared.  And I told her that I was but then S was ordering me butt pads and I would be back on my game as soon as I got them in the mail.

She gave me a hug, and I walked out of there a little less hurt, and as the head of the Recruitment committee.

My hearing has gotten progressively worse today, I'm very tired, slightly hungry, and I just really hope that I can get my hearing aids soon.