I'm here... living each day... trying to understand the sense of my loneliness.
I feel it so sharply... how much lonely I am. I feel sad... But at the same time I feel free... I can't even describe this real feeling of loneliness. It's the first time I realize I'm lonely indeed. Maybe it's because I spend much time alone, maybe I just need it - to stay lonely. I do have some kind of friends here... or people with whom I can spend some time. But even when I'm in a company I feel my loneliness deep inside.
Do I need anyone to be close to me? I'm not sure... I know I want it. But the question is: do I really need it?
Sleeping alone in my bed I think how great it would be if there was someone I love next to me... someone who loves me and takes care of me... Yeah, it would be great...
But I'm on my own now. And I move forward without any regrets and fears.