spoke to my grandma (nonny) on the phone this morning... she was notttttttttttttt sounding good.  holy geez.  i know she's on medications to help kill of the cancer cells... plus she's really still recovering from her surgery in december... but she sounded distinctly different from a week ago... depressed/morose... even said to me 'everyone needs to start preparing.... because i'm not doing well.'  ughhhhhhhhhh.... i better call home tonight for an update... maybe she's just down on herself for feeling wiped-out/no energy.... i'm hoping she comes around.  i mean, as we spoke on the conversation she sounded better/happier, but this was only when we were discussing things like 'the crazy weather in italy right now.'

i'm almost done with the paperwork for the 'other' loan repayment program... i'm going to drop that in the mail by friday at the latest... tonight i'll make sure everything is in order with the application.  very frustrating/annoying situation. 

then the other thing this morning.... 'hey alex, erin is going to be on maternity leave for three months july-september, so we're going to need you to only work at the far-away site location in order to fill in for her.'  me 'awwww fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.' 

so now... i dunno.... this is going to be strange to balance...

if i don't get the loan repayment AND i have to fill in for erin for those three months... this will be my only year working here.  so we'll see.

~xander-man